Personal Message from Me

Some people believe I only post negative stuff so, this might come across as a little negative but, I want to explain something to you about me.

I am always tired. Sometimes I am so tired I feel like I’ve not slept in a week, other times I feel like you probably do when you go to bed, that end of the day feeling when you’ve done your stuff and are ready for sleep. Most times I wiggle between those feelings, normal bedtime tired is a good day.

So occasionally I might just not see enthusiastic about things. I want to be but I just don’t have the umph for it.

As with all of us when we’re tired, I might feel so tired I am just grumpy, that’s because actually I am sleepy even if it seems dopey to be like that. There is nothing the doc can do about it either. Don’t be bashful, if you see me like that, give me a hug and make me happy but, if you are wearing a strong scent, you might make me sneazy. This is how life is for me, heigh ho.

Even when I am mega tired my sense of humour is still there.

Whilst I am still awaiting an official diagnosis, all the other things which make us tired have been rules out so, it looks like I have M.E. (Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (M.E.) is a long-term (chronic), fluctuating, neurological condition that causes symptoms affecting many body systems, more commonly the nervous and immune systems. M.E. affects an estimated 250,000 people in the UK, and around 17 million people worldwide.) 

I am not looking for sympathy, just understanding will do. My sister has the condition and, to be honest, is a fair amount of my inspiration to fight through it. If she can go to work each day, so can I. I do honestly wish I wasn’t working for over 60 hours a week to get paid for just over 40 but that’s currently the nature of the work I do. I honestly do not know how much longer I can cope with that pace but I will keep going as long as possible.

You know you don’t look good when some of your clients offer you their medication to try and make you feel better! (No, I don’t accept)

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