HWA

Today was another one of those ‘network’ meetings that we have for Jermaine with everyone that matters there so that we can achieve great things.

Sadly, the objective of this meeting that of making sure that respite was sorted for this year was not achieved because it takes some people several weeks to do what it takes me a short phone call and a fax to do. So, rather than us having moved on from last time, we are effectively, moving backward!

With that grind of a meeting behind me I was quite pleased to get a call which I hoped was to confirm that I was going off to Gran Canaria next month with loads of friends, my little break to myself this year. Unfortunately, it was nothing of the sort. It turned out to be the friend that asked me along had now changed his mind and now didn’t want me there so my little bit of salvation that I had allowed myself to get excited about, was just pulled from under me but yes, of course I understand, I understand fully how me saying how I hearing that really made me feel would have made them feel awkward and we can’t have emotion getting in the way of decisions after all.

The way I felt was when I was told this news was somewhere between deeply hurt and very angry. Hurt because I really need a break and they would have known that so it showed a total disregard for my feelings and, angry because, if they were not sure, why ask me? I was the worst possible person to have his emotions played about with like that. Oh, I guess I should not place all my friends so highly as to assume they would all avoid hurting me or know me well enough to know that this sort of thing really knocks me down.

Today was another one of those ‘network’ meetings that we have for Jermaine with everyone that matters there so that we can achieve great things.

Sadly, the objective of this meeting that of making sure that respite was sorted for this year was not achieved because it takes some people several weeks to do what it takes me a short phone call and a fax to do. So, rather than us having moved on from last time, we are effectively, moving backward!

With that grind of a meeting behind me I was quite pleased to get a call which I hoped was to confirm that I was going off to Gran Canaria next month with loads of friends, my little break to myself this year. Unfortunately, it was nothing of the sort. It turned out to be the friend that asked me along had now changed his mind and now didn’t want me there so my little bit of salvation that I had allowed myself to get excited about, was just pulled from under me but yes, of course I understand, I understand fully how me saying how I hearing that really made me feel would have made them feel awkward and we can’t have emotion getting in the way of decisions after all.

The way I felt was when I was told this news was somewhere between deeply hurt and very angry. Hurt because I really need a break and they would have known that so it showed a total disregard for my feelings and, angry because, if they were not sure, why ask me? I was the worst possible person to have his emotions played about with like that. Oh, I guess I should not place all my friends so highly as to assume they would all avoid hurting me or know me well enough to know that this sort of thing really knocks me down.

Some people have it and some people just don’t. I am so happy to say that my son matt has it in abundance!

Yesterday has to be the most perfect birthday I have ever had, I can think of only a few things that would have improved it but they are really insignificant into the overwhelming joy I got just from the thought that someone, anyone could put so much effort into making such a special day just for me, I mean, an unshared experience, this really was just for me and that was just so incredibly amazing.

It’s true to say I had an inkling that something was going to happen in the evening as there was some little hints but, even so, I was not expecting so many of my friends to be here especially when so many of them had made a point of telling me they couldn’t make it. They are all mean and totally wonderful, all at the same time.

If I have regret about the evening (and this is taking nothing away from the day) it is that I didn’t seem to get the time to speak to everyone for as long as I would have liked to do. I will make a point of catching up with them as soon as I can.

It was nice to receive gifts but, well, I mean, all that love, how can any material thing come anywhere close to that? My batteries have been well and truly recharged in the knowledge, the reaffirmation that I have so many friends that care about me; there is nothing on this planet that could equal that. A person that knows they are loved can do anything.

I am not going to go through the list of names as to who did specifically what but to all my friends, a huge thank you, it means everything to me to know you are there

Some people have it and some people just don’t. I am so happy to say that my son matt has it in abundance!

Yesterday has to be the most perfect birthday I have ever had, I can think of only a few things that would have improved it but they are really insignificant into the overwhelming joy I got just from the thought that someone, anyone could put so much effort into making such a special day just for me, I mean, an unshared experience, this really was just for me and that was just so incredibly amazing.

It’s true to say I had an inkling that something was going to happen in the evening as there was some little hints but, even so, I was not expecting so many of my friends to be here especially when so many of them had made a point of telling me they couldn’t make it. They are all mean and totally wonderful, all at the same time.

If I have regret about the evening (and this is taking nothing away from the day) it is that I didn’t seem to get the time to speak to everyone for as long as I would have liked to do. I will make a point of catching up with them as soon as I can.

It was nice to receive gifts but, well, I mean, all that love, how can any material thing come anywhere close to that? My batteries have been well and truly recharged in the knowledge, the reaffirmation that I have so many friends that care about me; there is nothing on this planet that could equal that. A person that knows they are loved can do anything.

I am not going to go through the list of names as to who did specifically what but to all my friends, a huge thank you, it means everything to me to know you are there