Tomorrow I have my first proper meeting regarding my web design skills. I am looking forward to it but, at the same time, feel almost as though it is a dream or an act in a play. You see, I am Mr Average, could do better. This is what all my school reports said and I had no reason to dispute them. I have gone through life believing I could be more without ever achieving. Here I am now, having directors of a charity coming to me for a meeting, it feels sort of weird and, somehow, totally right as well, like where I feel I should be now anyway. I am hoping they will agree my proposals and I can move the site forward and provide them with something which will boost their finances. It doesn’t make me anything but, boy, does it look good on a CV if any future employer can see past 50+!
In my life I feel like I am achieving something … no, this is not fair, I feel like I am a very proud witness to others achieving something. Parentally, it is important to see the children grow and prosper, more important, be happy in their lives. Right now, I am experiencing a whole lot of happiness. I don’t care whether I am helping that or I am just a casual observer, it is wonderful to see all the same.
The period from March 31st to April 27 is heaving with birthdays. I am hoping I have managed to get the gifts to bring a smile, as that is all I want, happy faces. Someone is getting some pressies early but, as long as they remember they already had them and don’t sulk with not a lot on the day, that’s OK.
In May I am really booked up. I have to confess, I am piggybacking other things to give myself a break and, you know what, I don’t feel even a little bit guilty about that. I shall be spending a lot of the time with part of my family I don’t spend enough time with and that has to be good.
Am going to be 48 this year, hmm, seems a little weird that as I remember when 48 seemed everso old indeed! On the plus side, I only have another 2 years before I can start joining the over 50’s clubs and getting discounts!
Had a test to discover if I have diabetes today. I don’t think I do but, if I do, it’s comforting to have my prayers answered. I asked if I could experience at least some of what Jermaine does so I don’t feel so disconnected from him. Not a day goes past without me remembering him as a kid, holding him in my arms and how he used to be. It’s heart-breaking for me seeing him as he is now
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Tomorrow I have my first proper meeting regarding my web design skills. I am looking forward to it but, at the same time, feel almost as though it is a dream or an act in a play. You see, I am Mr Average, could do better. This is what all my school reports said and I had no reason to dispute them. I have gone through life believing I could be more without ever achieving. Here I am now, having directors of a charity coming to me for a meeting, it feels sort of weird and, somehow, totally right as well, like where I feel I should be now anyway. I am hoping they will agree my proposals and I can move the site forward and provide them with something which will boost their finances. It doesn’t make me anything but, boy, does it look good on a CV if any future employer can see past 50+!
In my life I feel like I am achieving something … no, this is not fair, I feel like I am a very proud witness to others achieving something. Parentally, it is important to see the children grow and prosper, more important, be happy in their lives. Right now, I am experiencing a whole lot of happiness. I don’t care whether I am helping that or I am just a casual observer, it is wonderful to see all the same.
The period from March 31st to April 27 is heaving with birthdays. I am hoping I have managed to get the gifts to bring a smile, as that is all I want, happy faces. Someone is getting some pressies early but, as long as they remember they already had them and don’t sulk with not a lot on the day, that’s OK.
In May I am really booked up. I have to confess, I am piggybacking other things to give myself a break and, you know what, I don’t feel even a little bit guilty about that. I shall be spending a lot of the time with part of my family I don’t spend enough time with and that has to be good.
Am going to be 48 this year, hmm, seems a little weird that as I remember when 48 seemed everso old indeed! On the plus side, I only have another 2 years before I can start joining the over 50’s clubs and getting discounts!
Had a test to discover if I have diabetes today. I don’t think I do but, if I do, it’s comforting to have my prayers answered. I asked if I could experience at least some of what Jermaine does so I don’t feel so disconnected from him. Not a day goes past without me remembering him as a kid, holding him in my arms and how he used to be. It’s heart-breaking for me seeing him as he is now
Is it next year yet?
I was just wondering as, so far, this year has already had too many changes and that is only the start of it. The remainder of the year is going to see me reeling from the up and downs, swings and roundabouts, tops and turvy’s! I am going to see the biggest reductions in my income for years. I am already seeing the biggest increase in my outgoings for years! I think, and I really don’t know yet, that I am going to maybe have to get used to a totally different way of living.
The chance of setting up my own internet and IT business is looking all the more attractive. I got told this week that, had the government not have totally screwed up the finances, that the charity I volunteer for could really do with having me ‘in house’. Oh well, maybe things will recover before I retire and there could be a job for me there. I have other groups approaching me asking if I would sort out their website needs as well, all whilst I get ever increasing obligations at home. I may well take the opportunity to go spend a week on my own in the countryside, read a book or do something more useful than just the same old routine at home.
In the meantime, I have an important and busy week coming up. Legal matters to deal with and hopefully with an outcome everyone is satisfied with. I need to make sure, as much as I am in a position to do so, that Javis’s move goes well this week or, as well as it can given the near zero budget for it now. It’s a huge step for him, the first time he has started on the adult path to responsibility … next step, hopefully a job very soon before things get too difficult.
Do you ever order something from somewhere, moan they are taking too long, cancel and then end up regretting the choice made for the ‘better seller’? I do! I cancelled an order with a company I can trust to try another which looked OK but turned out to be a bunch of crooks in Hong Kong and now I am struggling to get my money back. I not only need the money but, the delays have put a project I was planning on hold! Damn me for being so impatient.
Spent some money on some new tops last week, truth is, I am just too fat for the ones I normally wear and have been showing off my huge belly, can’t be a pleasant site.
I need to have a lottery win … do you think it would help much if I bought a ticket?
On that note, time to tag some new pics on Facebook
Is it next year yet?
I was just wondering as, so far, this year has already had too many changes and that is only the start of it. The remainder of the year is going to see me reeling from the up and downs, swings and roundabouts, tops and turvy’s! I am going to see the biggest reductions in my income for years. I am already seeing the biggest increase in my outgoings for years! I think, and I really don’t know yet, that I am going to maybe have to get used to a totally different way of living.
The chance of setting up my own internet and IT business is looking all the more attractive. I got told this week that, had the government not have totally screwed up the finances, that the charity I volunteer for could really do with having me ‘in house’. Oh well, maybe things will recover before I retire and there could be a job for me there. I have other groups approaching me asking if I would sort out their website needs as well, all whilst I get ever increasing obligations at home. I may well take the opportunity to go spend a week on my own in the countryside, read a book or do something more useful than just the same old routine at home.
In the meantime, I have an important and busy week coming up. Legal matters to deal with and hopefully with an outcome everyone is satisfied with. I need to make sure, as much as I am in a position to do so, that Javis’s move goes well this week or, as well as it can given the near zero budget for it now. It’s a huge step for him, the first time he has started on the adult path to responsibility … next step, hopefully a job very soon before things get too difficult.
Do you ever order something from somewhere, moan they are taking too long, cancel and then end up regretting the choice made for the ‘better seller’? I do! I cancelled an order with a company I can trust to try another which looked OK but turned out to be a bunch of crooks in Hong Kong and now I am struggling to get my money back. I not only need the money but, the delays have put a project I was planning on hold! Damn me for being so impatient.
Spent some money on some new tops last week, truth is, I am just too fat for the ones I normally wear and have been showing off my huge belly, can’t be a pleasant site.
I need to have a lottery win … do you think it would help much if I bought a ticket?
On that note, time to tag some new pics on Facebook