Started sorting out the girls rooms on Saturday. Both the bunks went early in the day via freecycle and a guy who took Zoey’s bed also dropped off a desk at the tip for us. Further to that, we have been invited round for coffee, how ever so very weird (but nice)

Started the painting and was soon feeling quite ill and rather sorry for myself. Went at it rather half heartedly but did at least manage to put together Zoey’s bed.

By Sunday I was feeling really bad and went to bed for a few hours, not a lot was really getting done.

Got up around 7 to greet Kay & Geoff, Jermaine, assorted carers, Matt & Anne. Maine was in a strange mood and managed to hit both Deej and Kay though I was spared.

Matt said something which made me think in that he and Anne were feeling ill when they were decorating but someone has to do it … that could have been me saying that so after they all left I got on with the decorating whilst Deej was in bed. He got up at some point and helped out. I think he went to bed around 5am and me at around 6.A stupid time to go to bed but at least I felt like I did something.

Was up again at 8 to take Daisy to school and do some shopping then back home and worked through until we finally finished everything at around 8:30 this evening.

Just had a bath and so know I should be in bed but I am crap at sleeping whilst the girls are still up and about. I may just skip tomorrow so if no one hears from me, don’t be too shocked.

My health is now predictably crap and I ache all over but at least I didn’t give up this time.

For the record, for interested parties, my phylosophy on married or partners guys who wanted to shag me was always the same, their problems were not my problems. I’d ignore them in the street but that would be my only concession.

Just started to read Mort seeing as I had to give up on ‘The Light Fantastic’ seeing as they have added that to the ‘Colour of Magic’ on Sky as I found out by watching part 1

Are we having fun yet?

Started sorting out the girls rooms on Saturday. Both the bunks went early in the day via freecycle and a guy who took Zoey’s bed also dropped off a desk at the tip for us. Further to that, we have been invited round for coffee, how ever so very weird (but nice)

Started the painting and was soon feeling quite ill and rather sorry for myself. Went at it rather half heartedly but did at least manage to put together Zoey’s bed.

By Sunday I was feeling really bad and went to bed for a few hours, not a lot was really getting done.

Got up around 7 to greet Kay & Geoff, Jermaine, assorted carers, Matt & Anne. Maine was in a strange mood and managed to hit both Deej and Kay though I was spared.

Matt said something which made me think in that he and Anne were feeling ill when they were decorating but someone has to do it … that could have been me saying that so after they all left I got on with the decorating whilst Deej was in bed. He got up at some point and helped out. I think he went to bed around 5am and me at around 6.A stupid time to go to bed but at least I felt like I did something.

Was up again at 8 to take Daisy to school and do some shopping then back home and worked through until we finally finished everything at around 8:30 this evening.

Just had a bath and so know I should be in bed but I am crap at sleeping whilst the girls are still up and about. I may just skip tomorrow so if no one hears from me, don’t be too shocked.

My health is now predictably crap and I ache all over but at least I didn’t give up this time.

For the record, for interested parties, my phylosophy on married or partners guys who wanted to shag me was always the same, their problems were not my problems. I’d ignore them in the street but that would be my only concession.

Just started to read Mort seeing as I had to give up on ‘The Light Fantastic’ seeing as they have added that to the ‘Colour of Magic’ on Sky as I found out by watching part 1

Are we having fun yet?

But, it’s only a cold so no biggie

I think I am losing friendships and there is nothing I can do about it.

A couple I know recently, one asked who I was when I sent a text, he’d deleted my number and the other ignores me on MSN. We have stayed with these guys, they have stayed here and we got along OK, known them for years and they have not said there is a problem.

Another friend kind of didn’t tell me he’s visiting Matt. This is a friend of mine who met Matt through me yet he tells me he’s real busy and doesn’t have much time.

Yet another guy is in regular contact with Matt yet they met through me and he was my friend, seem not any more.

Sadly I think I know why but there is nothing I can do about it or would want to do about it. I can’t please everyone with my choice of partners. I don’t want to lose friends but, at the same time, I need to be my own person and be with who I want to be with.

So, right now there are some serious vacancies for friends in my life because I so need adult conversation with intelligent people.

This is not to in any way undermine the friendships I maintain, I value them all, but I would be mad not to acknowledge that which stares me in the face!

Daisy got really crap school grades but I am optimistic that he wants to do something about it. On the one hand it bothers me if she doesn’t reach her full potential but then, on the other, all I really want from any of the kids is that that are happy, help others when they can and are liked by others.

I only just noticed but none of these posts seem to be dated. Actually, the date is there but it is the same colour as the background so you would need to highlight it to see it.

Today I was hoping to go see Jermaine as he couldn’t visit yesterday but my eyes are really too sore to be driving about.

On one of the websites I use some idiot just said that a person cannot be properly gay if they have kids, some people are just plain stupid.

Watched Bee Movie with the kids yesterday and it is a real laugh. Actually, it is so good I now have to buy the DVD to prove I mean what I say when I have said that downloading a movie is more likely to encourage me to buy.

I am so looking forward to getting my hair done tomorrow, even better that it is a freebie. Heaven knows what it is going to look like as I am just going to tell them to use their imagination.

You so don’t want to know how much debt I am in but these things have to be done. I have a theory that it gets to a certain point and actually starts to look good again despite being dire. No, it isn’t meant to make sense.

I need summer

But, it’s only a cold so no biggie

I think I am losing friendships and there is nothing I can do about it.

A couple I know recently, one asked who I was when I sent a text, he’d deleted my number and the other ignores me on MSN. We have stayed with these guys, they have stayed here and we got along OK, known them for years and they have not said there is a problem.

Another friend kind of didn’t tell me he’s visiting Matt. This is a friend of mine who met Matt through me yet he tells me he’s real busy and doesn’t have much time.

Yet another guy is in regular contact with Matt yet they met through me and he was my friend, seem not any more.

Sadly I think I know why but there is nothing I can do about it or would want to do about it. I can’t please everyone with my choice of partners. I don’t want to lose friends but, at the same time, I need to be my own person and be with who I want to be with.

So, right now there are some serious vacancies for friends in my life because I so need adult conversation with intelligent people.

This is not to in any way undermine the friendships I maintain, I value them all, but I would be mad not to acknowledge that which stares me in the face!

Daisy got really crap school grades but I am optimistic that he wants to do something about it. On the one hand it bothers me if she doesn’t reach her full potential but then, on the other, all I really want from any of the kids is that that are happy, help others when they can and are liked by others.

I only just noticed but none of these posts seem to be dated. Actually, the date is there but it is the same colour as the background so you would need to highlight it to see it.

Today I was hoping to go see Jermaine as he couldn’t visit yesterday but my eyes are really too sore to be driving about.

On one of the websites I use some idiot just said that a person cannot be properly gay if they have kids, some people are just plain stupid.

Watched Bee Movie with the kids yesterday and it is a real laugh. Actually, it is so good I now have to buy the DVD to prove I mean what I say when I have said that downloading a movie is more likely to encourage me to buy.

I am so looking forward to getting my hair done tomorrow, even better that it is a freebie. Heaven knows what it is going to look like as I am just going to tell them to use their imagination.

You so don’t want to know how much debt I am in but these things have to be done. I have a theory that it gets to a certain point and actually starts to look good again despite being dire. No, it isn’t meant to make sense.

I need summer