For me personally, most of July was utter shit, some of the lowest points in my life. August isn’t a whole lot better if any at all.

I am really pleased that others around me are sorting their lives out but I am personally feeling like it’s all a little too much this business of life … a lot of pain which makes the gains feel less than they deserve which then makes me feel guilty for not sharing the pleasure which makes me feel more shit and so on.

My closest friends almost certainly have a really good idea what is going on, I need to make more of an effort to see them