Author: Steve Antipolo

I visited earlier and she is really a joy to visit now. I also found a reliable way to get her to communicate as to whether she wants to come home or not and she made it abundantly clear just how much!

Now it is up to me to do my best to make sure it happens if I can. I told her, I can’t promise her anything other than I will do my best. There were a lot of tears and hugs but a lot of laughter too.

She made it clear she totally doesn’t like being watched 24/7, she says she feels intimidated … she didn’t say that word but I can’t remember what she actually said but that was what she was saying anyway.

It’s so sad to walk away with her standing there with her little wave trying to stay happy but near to tears.

Today was like I was a basket ball dropped from a very tall damn. Started off briefly on a high then dropped to the bottom, bounced back up again, to the bottom, back up and so on eventually settling into a quiet calm.

Some parts of today have been absolute hell, others, very emotional and uplifting.

I only exchanged a few words with Dennis, he has a bad head and needed his bed, I wish I’d been there to sooth him though, if it was anything like the headaches I get, he’s have politely told me to go elsewhere!

Caroline did an absolutely awesome job with a great massage and reiki but more so with her understanding and friendship.

Robin gave me the left overs of his dinner which I had all on it’s on for my supper and it was gorgeous.

House peaceful though, I don’t much like empty. Watched an episode of Break Bad, not many to go now, 8 I think.

I went to the pharmacy earlier and picked up some sleeping tablets … to help me sleep.

This weekend I am taking a break from dealing with anything stressful, all light hearted stuff from now on .. until Monday which promises to be mega stressed but, that’s Monday!

The Care Manager for Zoey (social worker) decided Thursday morning that there was no reason to have a discussion about discharge as she had barely started her safeguarding investigation.

Though they try to deny it, this is effectively ‘them’ saying that they believe ‘we’ did something to harm Zoey and that’s why she ended up in hospital.

This is one of the most horrible things I have ever had to experience. I am trying really hard but I cannot see any good in what they are doing, it’s vindictive, it’s nasty and it is plain wrong!

Each day they seem to twist the knife in me more. I am fighting for what I know is right for my daughter and I am being made to feel like some sort of sordid criminal.

This should be one of the happiest most positive times of my life yet I feel so horribly low. No organisation or individual should have the power to do this to others, it is one of the worst cases of abuse of authority and it’s happening to us.

Just about the worst part is, none of them are telling Zoey they won’t let her go home, she genuinely thinks they’re going to let her come home soon. We all here feel that she should be home soon but, I am now convinced it is unlikely she will be home this year. I just keep seeing her optimistic face as we discussed her coming home the other day, she was so excited and looking forward to it. I am sickened that I am going to have to be the bad guy and tell her it isn’t going to happen and I have no idea when it might, if ever. I have totally failed my daughter. Anyone who says otherwise doesn’t understand parenting at all.

The Government are totally right on one thing, earning boosts the economy, on this basic fact there can be no dispute. Getting folk off benefits, including tax credits, and self sufficient in employment has to be the way to go but, he has it wrong, terribly wrong, damaging to the country wrong on the level of income people need to really make this a healthy top to bottom country.

The notion they have of making the rich richer and expecting it to filter down requires a mindset amongst the wealthy which simply doesn’t exist.

What is required is to make those at the bottom wealthier, not rich but they must have expendable income. Look, it’s obvious, anyone can understand it, except the government it seems, it’s economics.

If you pay Joe Public minimum wage, even a living wage and it just about covers his living needs so, his everyday costs such as utilities, rent/mortgage, TV and so on then he is no longer a burden on the country but then, he is also not a financial contributor either as he either pays nothing or very little in tax and a small amount of VAT.

Pay Joe Public more than he needs and he will spent it or save it. If he spends (most likely) then he will need product to buy. The more there are like our Joe the more product will be needed, the more workers will be needed to manufacture and sell that product. This creates employment. If those new employees also have more than they truly need to cover their costs then they too buy product which requires more workers to provide it, deliver it and sell it which requires more workers … with all this selling, companies make larger profits even on top of those extra wages, larger wages means more tax revenue.

The result is … huge extra tax revenue for the country, unemployment right down, benefit costs slashed, huge increased profits for companies and shareholders … everyone wins from this.

There is only one reason it doesn’t happen and that word is ‘greed’