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Well, plans I thought I may have for Christmas don’t seem likely now. Not entirely sure what direction it’s going to go in but I am sure it’ll be sorted before the big day.

In the meantime, Christmas has started early here at Williams Towers. We’re watching Christmas movies and listening to Christmas music. I’ve completed all my shopping now (How awesome is that).

Tonight, being November 5th, is fireworks night and we’re heading down to town for the free show there as a family except for Sean who is yet to learn how important it is to grab every quality moment with the kids when they’re young … I am still going to try and persuade him again though, I am sure he’d enjoy it.

Dad has placed an offer in for the Essex flat which has been accepted so full steam ahead on that one.

I was up way too late last night because I didn’t have any plans for this morning. Had a lovely chat with Randy over there in the Philippines until nearly 3am. Of course, as these things tend to be, our Joshua didn’t play ball this morning so granddad was woken up after 5 hours sleep to take him to school. I may need a short nap now to catch up on sleep before the fireworks later.

Of course, not everyone worldwide understand the significance of November 5th in the UK. Anyway, it goes back to 1605 and involved a man called Guy Fawkes who. along with several others, thought it would be jolly to blow up the government. It didn’t go so well for him … read more here

About this blog

It’s been speculated that some of it might be made up, have certain aspects ‘bigged up’ to read better. Sadly, it is what it is. A collection of moments as they were. For legal reasons, certain episodes, very significant ones, had to be removed. Some day I’d like to add them again, tell the story as it was but, it’ll have to wait until such time as the person behind them runs out of luck.

Plans

Fireworks this evening, an outing on 15th and a cinema trip at the end of the month to see Disney’s Aladdin. Yes, I know it’s old but, I never saw it at the cinema so will be good.

Am liking the idea of a masquerade ball at home where everyone wears a mask and dresses up as smart as they can manage …

Enough for now I think

Had a really busy day today but, let’s backtrack

Yesterday the bedroom was turned into a proper bedroom with wardrobe, drawers and so on and my computer stuff and gadgets were moved to another room. I changed my bed clothes, everything looked and worked great.

But

I stayed up late last night on the Xbox (GTA) and knew I had to get up early. Six hours is normally fine by me, 5 is quite good too so I thought it would be OK. Oh dear, it wasn’t. I seemed to be waking up and each time the clock had moved on an hour or so. By 4am I got up, used the loo, did some relaxation therapy and settled then until I woke at 7:30.

Frustrating part is that I had a really busy day lined up so have just ended up so very tired.

Now would be a good time to go bed but, I am over tired! I know I won’t sleep yet, it’s just silly like this and, I am up quite early tomorrow too.

On the plus side, I don’t have plans for Sunday, I did but now I don’t so, I might sleep a fair bit!

Monday is Essex day

Had a really busy day today but, let’s backtrack

Yesterday the bedroom was turned into a proper bedroom with wardrobe, drawers and so on and my computer stuff and gadgets were moved to another room. I changed my bed clothes, everything looked and worked great.

But

I stayed up late last night on the Xbox (GTA) and knew I had to get up early. Six hours is normally fine by me, 5 is quite good too so I thought it would be OK. Oh dear, it wasn’t. I seemed to be waking up and each time the clock had moved on an hour or so. By 4am I got up, used the loo, did some relaxation therapy and settled then until I woke at 7:30.

Frustrating part is that I had a really busy day lined up so have just ended up so very tired.

Now would be a good time to go bed but, I am over tired! I know I won’t sleep yet, it’s just silly like this and, I am up quite early tomorrow too.

On the plus side, I don’t have plans for Sunday, I did but now I don’t so, I might sleep a fair bit!

Monday is Essex day

It’s maybe presumed that because I write negatively occasionally that I am a negative person, I am really not. Indeed, were I not such a positive person I think I should have gone mad years ago!

Those who know me well enough occasionally get infuriated by my positivity, when all they can see is negativity I jump in with an alternative more positive synopsis of a situation. Sometimes I even use a whole selection of stupendously long words, you may have noticed that?

Now, I have mentioned in other entries that, now and then, stuff really is sort of poo, there is no point asking someone to think of the positives in their life because, right at that moment they need to let go of the negatives first, it’s easier than it sounds. I use visualisation as one tool, breathing methods is another, writing yet another. Adding up all the positives doesn’t always work, maths and the mind don’t always come to the same answer.

So, when we have a negative, it’s worth asking someone else if they can see any way that this negative can be worked in our favour. In the same way as manure can be used to grow wonderful plants, perhaps our own life manure (not from the toilet please) can be used to help build our own future?

As an experiment, and this can’t, as far as I am aware, happen … try to imagine, if you will, that you have a time machine. Don’t complicate things, there is only one time machine and only you know about it. Think of a time in your life when you felt bad, a time in your life you wish didn’t happen. In your mind go back and change it, how ever you feel you would rather that would have gone. Done that? Good, now, I want you to take an honest look at your life from this new point, are you absolutely certain that change you just made won’t have affected any aspect of your current life you get some value from?

I can count on one hand the amount of things I could change with little to no impact upon my future. I can’t go back and stop my mother dying, it would change everything I now know. I can’t get that job in New York I regret not getting, that would really have changed everything. Losing my first boyfriend to a misunderstanding? I’d have no kids or grandkids now if I did that.The list goes on and those are just the events I can sort of predict the outcomes from.

How about those times I got delayed somewhere? How can I be sure that the delay didn’t actually save my life? All those bad sexual partner choices? I know now what I don’t want! All that pain as a kid? I learnt empathy. Caring for years? I learnt to put others first, how to deal with puke, poo and being hit without taking it personally. Being gay? I now know to respect difference. Years of homophobic abuse? I accept there is real evil in the world, not everyone is a friend.

You see, from just about every negative there will be a positive outcome if we just step back and look for it. We’ll go through pain until we see it but, it’s there all the same.

When we read negativity don’t distance yourself from that person, offer them something instead, some of your time. Time means so much, more than we ever really appreciate until we get it offered to us freely, time is the start of switching from negative to positive.