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Some people have it and some people just don’t. I am so happy to say that my son matt has it in abundance!

Yesterday has to be the most perfect birthday I have ever had, I can think of only a few things that would have improved it but they are really insignificant into the overwhelming joy I got just from the thought that someone, anyone could put so much effort into making such a special day just for me, I mean, an unshared experience, this really was just for me and that was just so incredibly amazing.

It’s true to say I had an inkling that something was going to happen in the evening as there was some little hints but, even so, I was not expecting so many of my friends to be here especially when so many of them had made a point of telling me they couldn’t make it. They are all mean and totally wonderful, all at the same time.

If I have regret about the evening (and this is taking nothing away from the day) it is that I didn’t seem to get the time to speak to everyone for as long as I would have liked to do. I will make a point of catching up with them as soon as I can.

It was nice to receive gifts but, well, I mean, all that love, how can any material thing come anywhere close to that? My batteries have been well and truly recharged in the knowledge, the reaffirmation that I have so many friends that care about me; there is nothing on this planet that could equal that. A person that knows they are loved can do anything.

I am not going to go through the list of names as to who did specifically what but to all my friends, a huge thank you, it means everything to me to know you are there

I have tried to get used to www.outeverywhere.com but I just can’t. The thing is now so badly written it is like using the net a decade ago. Any enjoyment I used to get from the place has totally gone. Now I use www.kagoul.com as it is much more user friendly and well, just more friendly in general I guess.

I would like to get moving on booking a holiday to Gran Canaria for next month but unless I can get Jermaine looked after from 24th to 25th I can’t do it which would be a right shame. Sunday and the ex in-laws come over. I have asked them to do it but I fully expect a no answer and, well, I may then be out of options, such is life.

One thing I can do is send off my Tesco vouchers and get myself a holiday out of them. We have chosen 5 days in Disney Resort Paris staying at the Newport Bay Club on the Admiral’s floor where I have been before and no to be excellent. I somehow I have to keep reminding myself that this will be a total freebie!

I have been instructed that tomorrow I am to get as much sleep as I can for some reason. I can’t see that happening as, at the very least, I do need to go out and exchange some insulin over for Jermaine as I was given the wrong type.

I have tried to get used to www.outeverywhere.com but I just can’t. The thing is now so badly written it is like using the net a decade ago. Any enjoyment I used to get from the place has totally gone. Now I use www.kagoul.com as it is much more user friendly and well, just more friendly in general I guess.

I would like to get moving on booking a holiday to Gran Canaria for next month but unless I can get Jermaine looked after from 24th to 25th I can’t do it which would be a right shame. Sunday and the ex in-laws come over. I have asked them to do it but I fully expect a no answer and, well, I may then be out of options, such is life.

One thing I can do is send off my Tesco vouchers and get myself a holiday out of them. We have chosen 5 days in Disney Resort Paris staying at the Newport Bay Club on the Admiral’s floor where I have been before and no to be excellent. I somehow I have to keep reminding myself that this will be a total freebie!

I have been instructed that tomorrow I am to get as much sleep as I can for some reason. I can’t see that happening as, at the very least, I do need to go out and exchange some insulin over for Jermaine as I was given the wrong type.

No, June I mean, not my waistline!

Amazingly, though it only seems a short while since I was here at this time of year last year, well, on historical terms, it was, but no … I mean, this time last year I was getting all hot and sweaty in Gran Canaria, having fun, getting drunk, starting the beginning of the end of my relationship and all that, it was a year ago.

Now, I am fast approaching 42 which I don’t mind, it’s not old (unless I drop dead at 45 of course) so, well, it’s just another birthday and I do so love birthdays (not)

I have been told that I must get plenty of sleep on Friday, I am scared, I think I should be ‘very’ scared! So, just to cover myself I intend to have a lay in tomorrow, a nice long one, I may not get up until lunch time and the phone will be removed from my room! I need my beauty sleep, not that I have long enough to sleep to do anything at all for my beauty but what the hell, when I am in bed, no one is looking!

So, enough of the rhetorical nonsense, what of the excitement that was June 1st?

Hmmm, one of ‘those’ days when I never quite do what I had planned to do which was, in this case, totally nothing except sleep!

I forgot I had a meeting with someone from social services, someone called Allison who was here to do a financial assessment to see how much I have to pay for the services Jermaine may or may not get in the future. It turns out the whole system is screwed, like that’s a shock!

Now get this, the well off get more discount on the service cost, why? Well, whereas I shall find the cheapest way to provide what Jermaine needs, the well off will go to Harrods to get it. I claim it costs me £20 a year to buy new sheets for him and they claim it costs £90, the same amount of sheets but, and this is the bummer, they get an extra £70 knocked off how much they have to pay for services because their outgoings are more!

I suggested maybe I could just match those sorts of prices as a theoretical experiment but, this is not allowed, we have to strictly stick to the facts, we can’t go making things up just because it suits us. Fair enough I hear you say, but wait!

Jermaine doesn’t get income support yet; I have avoided it as we will be a lot worse off when he does. But, the assessment team says he does because it is easier and it suits their needs!

So, they can make up any shit they like and I have to stick to the facts. This means, I end up maxing out on pay outs for services whilst the better off get it for free or thereabouts. The whole darn system is screwed I tell you!