Stretched

Feeling somewhat poorly, let’s just say ‘man flu’ because I don’t know what it is, I find it difficult to remain calm and relaxed. Actually, relaxed is not a word which applies at all right now, anything but!

Anyway, I’ve had to deal with silly people over the telephone and am proud of myself for maintaining a degree of humour and understanding for their predicament even when they were so clearly talking complete nonsense. This is not least because Sean now works for such a call centre and has to deal with people like me calling all day and I know it sours his day when someone awkward calls. Sadly, ‘Molly’ at Ovo Energy was extremely unhelpful and I had need to speak to her boss but, even so, once he had sorted my quite basic requirement, I did ask him to speak to Molly and explain that my assertiveness was not a personal affront on her, that I accept I was probably expecting a result beyond her remit, hopefully that was passed along to her. As for the lady at Scottish Power who asked me what I wanted her to do after I reported an illegal breach of the data protection act, well … I had to inform her that working in a data protection department she should be well aware of what to do when her company is seen to be breaking the law and that if I needed to tell her that perhaps she might be in the wrong profession! Some people are just too dense to work with!

So,my abilities are being stretched. I could do what my body is screaming at me to do and, go to bed but, that’s giving up, not something I enjoy!

As for my mental state, I’ve come to one very obvious conclusion, I’m lonely! I am not a solitary person, I don’t do well with just my own company, I need to be part of something intimate and special. Can’t see any amount of medication, CBT or counselling resolving that one! A lottery win, that would work

Stretched

Feeling somewhat poorly, let’s just say ‘man flu’ because I don’t know what it is, I find it difficult to remain calm and relaxed. Actually, relaxed is not a word which applies at all right now, anything but!

Anyway, I’ve had to deal with silly people over the telephone and am proud of myself for maintaining a degree of humour and understanding for their predicament even when they were so clearly talking complete nonsense. This is not least because Sean now works for such a call centre and has to deal with people like me calling all day and I know it sours his day when someone awkward calls. Sadly, ‘Molly’ at Ovo Energy was extremely unhelpful and I had need to speak to her boss but, even so, once he had sorted my quite basic requirement, I did ask him to speak to Molly and explain that my assertiveness was not a personal affront on her, that I accept I was probably expecting a result beyond her remit, hopefully that was passed along to her. As for the lady at Scottish Power who asked me what I wanted her to do after I reported an illegal breach of the data protection act, well … I had to inform her that working in a data protection department she should be well aware of what to do when her company is seen to be breaking the law and that if I needed to tell her that perhaps she might be in the wrong profession! Some people are just too dense to work with!

So,my abilities are being stretched. I could do what my body is screaming at me to do and, go to bed but, that’s giving up, not something I enjoy!

As for my mental state, I’ve come to one very obvious conclusion, I’m lonely! I am not a solitary person, I don’t do well with just my own company, I need to be part of something intimate and special. Can’t see any amount of medication, CBT or counselling resolving that one! A lottery win, that would work

Not a good day

For some reason today has not been good. Last night I was up a little late but, that’s normal for me. Thing is, I felt physically ill and weak. That’s carried on today as well, no doubt some sort of bug. I had a nap earlier, was meant to be a quick, hour or so catch up, it was several hours and I felt I could stay there all night.

Damn depression has kicked in again, been pushing myself through it rather a lot, that’s quite tiring.

Somewhat fed up with what the doctor reckons are the symptoms of allergic rhinitis but I am not so sure. I get very sore spots all over the place, itchy to the point of wanting to scratch my skin off and scabs on my head like I have a serious flea issue (I don’t) Generally just rather unpleasant, not sure what else to do about it if the doctor seems convinced it’s the rhinitis and just wants to keep experimenting with new meds.

With some good fortune I might wake tomorrow feeling altogether different. I don’t have any plans this week other than trying daily to communicate with Randy which just seems to keep not happening. It’s his birthday Friday, no doubt he’ll be convincing himself he’s just one step closer to the grave because he’s an old man! He’s the same age as me, I thinking I’ve only just taken my first steps out the cradle … glass half empty or half full?