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What a weekend I have had, non stop sex from a stream of guys, all drop dead gorgeous and they couldn’t get enough of me!

Now, wouldn’t it make a change if I typed something like that and there was even an element of truth in it?

I spoke to Tony about this the other day, I just don’t really have a lot of sex drive now, to word it with more accuracy, I don’t have a lot of sexual confidence. After a string of awful encounters with guys that just want to ‘cum and go’ I have all but lost interest.

Popped over to see Robin yesterday and David was there also. Spent quite some time trying to repair a Dell Laptop but the thing was just plain beyond repair and there has to be a point where I give up as much as I hate to.

The more I meet David the more I get to like him, well, he is a very likeable man.

In the late afternoon, early evening I went into Tony’s, he had promised to reinvigorate my sex drive, not something I had much hope for. Of course, where I got there, Tom and Gary were in the lounge chatting on their laptops. I like the pair of them but sometimes I wonder if Tony is happy with having lost control of his house. It is one thing to have company when we are lonely but another when they don’t get the hint and sod off when we have guests. This is something I must be very careful about when I eventually get a lodger.

I read Nick’s blog earlier on today, I think he is missing the point about this holiday and the money he stopped paying me. He seems to think I am bitter because I have resentment for him going on holiday when I can’t (I can as it happens) and spending the money on the holiday rather than something sensible. Well, I don’t really care if he goes on holiday or not, that is his choice. What I was doing is giving him some alternate options that he could either take or not dependant on what he thought was best for him. To my way of thinking, using the extra cash as an additional element of income now available for rent seemed logical if he is as unhappy with the regime at his current lodgings as he appears to be and Thailand (tsunami’s permitting) is still going to be there next year so there is no real hurry for that and next year he gets back all the tax he is losing in this current tax year so a real chance to spend some serious money. As far as the £50 a week goes, well, I have already written about that and why I feel so pissed off about it.

Today I went down town with Matt and bought Zoey some new clothes to make her look good and she really does look a lot better than she has before, quite feminine. I did have to have words with the sales assistant in one shop though that wanted to insist that men were not allowed in the changing area. I mentioned to her that my daughter was mentally handicapped and if she wanted to get the near £200 sale, she best let me to stay with her or else I walk there and then. She sensibly apologised and allowed me to stay.

Jermaine has been reluctant to eat today which has made managing his diabetes difficult and this is probably due to a fit he had earlier on today.

Tomorrow I have to get over my fears and take Matt to the dentist where he shall be having some teeth out, rather him than me but even so, actually walking into a dentist fills me with dread, wish me luck!

I was hoping to get off and do something different this weekend rather than just more of the same. Not that I am complaining about ‘the same’ at all but it is nice for my mind to add new experiences, new interactions. Well, that isn’t going to happen so I shall go see my little chubby friend in MK and possibly Tony later if I get the time.

The past day or so has been quiet which is unusual and most welcome. It amazes me how much things can change from one end of the week to another.

It’s possible I may soon be starting work but I have not arranged anything firm yet and I want to get a few things in place for myself to give me the widest option base possible. Most of these volunteer posts are only a few hours a week so it is quite possible to get them working alongside each other.

Nick got a little pissed off with me the other day. I mistook my rationalising as me telling him what to do. He has suddenly gained £50 a week from me being the money he should really have paid back because it was for a loan which also helped pay for a holiday that he went on and a car he got a lot of use out of and generally speaking, he agreed to and put his name to … after all, just because we may have stopped using what we bought with a loan that doesn’t mean we don’t still owe the money … still, he didn’t see it that way so that now I am left with the full amount and he is wondering what holiday to go on with his gain! OK, no, I am not happy about that at all and it just proves he still has no concept of how finance works and how loans work! Anyway, I suggested that as he is clearly not happy with the restrictions his landlord has placed upon him he could use that money to pay more rent and get a far better place rather than put it all toward Thailand later this year, he already reckoned to be able to save for that before he got the money from me. Damn I am annoyed about that! Anyway, it’s up to him what he does with it. Bloody hell, I am paying over £300 a month for a car I don’t have anymore yet he can walk away and spend the money on a bloody holiday! Talk about having your cake and eating it. Still, tact and logic never were Nicks strong points so I am not shocked by it.

I got my ipod the other day and it has been a right pain converting all the tracks from wma to aac, if only the thing played wma this would not be an issue! That said, if the biggest problem of the moment is transferring files to an ipod, I don’t imagine I have that much to worry about!

Been thinking about getting a new phone and the Sony K700i looks cool and would do what I want a phone to do, I shall have to see what I want to do in a month or so.

I would like to arrange a holiday out o the country for myself and the kids (minus Jermaine) for July/August but it is really late now and I am not sure I will get anywhere I can either afford or would want to go, I guess even if we just manage a week it would be better than nothing.

I was hoping to get off and do something different this weekend rather than just more of the same. Not that I am complaining about ‘the same’ at all but it is nice for my mind to add new experiences, new interactions. Well, that isn’t going to happen so I shall go see my little chubby friend in MK and possibly Tony later if I get the time.

The past day or so has been quiet which is unusual and most welcome. It amazes me how much things can change from one end of the week to another.

It’s possible I may soon be starting work but I have not arranged anything firm yet and I want to get a few things in place for myself to give me the widest option base possible. Most of these volunteer posts are only a few hours a week so it is quite possible to get them working alongside each other.

Nick got a little pissed off with me the other day. I mistook my rationalising as me telling him what to do. He has suddenly gained £50 a week from me being the money he should really have paid back because it was for a loan which also helped pay for a holiday that he went on and a car he got a lot of use out of and generally speaking, he agreed to and put his name to … after all, just because we may have stopped using what we bought with a loan that doesn’t mean we don’t still owe the money … still, he didn’t see it that way so that now I am left with the full amount and he is wondering what holiday to go on with his gain! OK, no, I am not happy about that at all and it just proves he still has no concept of how finance works and how loans work! Anyway, I suggested that as he is clearly not happy with the restrictions his landlord has placed upon him he could use that money to pay more rent and get a far better place rather than put it all toward Thailand later this year, he already reckoned to be able to save for that before he got the money from me. Damn I am annoyed about that! Anyway, it’s up to him what he does with it. Bloody hell, I am paying over £300 a month for a car I don’t have anymore yet he can walk away and spend the money on a bloody holiday! Talk about having your cake and eating it. Still, tact and logic never were Nicks strong points so I am not shocked by it.

I got my ipod the other day and it has been a right pain converting all the tracks from wma to aac, if only the thing played wma this would not be an issue! That said, if the biggest problem of the moment is transferring files to an ipod, I don’t imagine I have that much to worry about!

Been thinking about getting a new phone and the Sony K700i looks cool and would do what I want a phone to do, I shall have to see what I want to do in a month or so.

I would like to arrange a holiday out o the country for myself and the kids (minus Jermaine) for July/August but it is really late now and I am not sure I will get anywhere I can either afford or would want to go, I guess even if we just manage a week it would be better than nothing.

I predict Labour has a majority reduced to around 72 by the end of counting this night, like I have any idea at all!

This time and for the first time ever, I have voted Liberal Democrat. Not because of Iraq or anything like that but simpy because I feel our Labour MP, Sally Keeble is too smug and doesn’t really do anything effective for her constutuants, she is more of a career MP than a local MP and seems to be far more concerned with how high she can get in Westminster than how low the rest of us back here in Northampton are going. This is not a protest vote, I realy believe Andrew Simpson can achieve great things if he doesn’t get corrupted by power, I hope not.

Earlier on today I bottled out of making a statement about an assault I witnessed on Sunday. Bottom line is, those that committed it would quite happily make our lives hell and I am not having a good enough year to be going through all that sort of shit again.

Earlier on I had a meeting at Eleanor Lodge to discuss Jermaine’s needs there, just a formality but a time consuming one which meant I didn’t have the time to do what I had planned to do but it was nothing that couldn’t wait until another time so I am not that bothered.

Apart from the feeling that I didn’t really achieve much today, I do feel somewhat better than I have in a while.