HWA

I am sat here waiting for UPS to turn up and collect my Ipaq, I may even get it repaired at some point, who knows? Actually, I have enclosed a letter explaining I want it replaced and not repaired, what’s the betting they’ll ignore it.

Daisy dropped my laptop and has killed it. I was not happy with the laptop spec as it was but could not justify replacing it. I do need one though else I’d go mad so I went out and bought myself a new one with a Pentium M 760 2Ghz chip and 2 gig of RAM too. I reckon this one will keep me going for a while. Sure I was angry with Daisy but there is really very little I can do about it. I was also angry with Matt as he had a role to play in it too and it was really more luck than anything that it didn’t get busted after he used it as it was always left on the floor in the lounge afterwards.

I have put aside any thought of going to Florida this year. I hope to get a costing from Robin at some point of what they would charge me for the house but I won’t be making any decisions until I know what money I have and I won’t know that until something like late August or September.

Someone on Kagoul has been spreading shit about me which is starting to reach the boards and I am not at all happy about it not least because there is totally no truth in it and even the retraction implied there is no smoke without fire. If that place does not improve and the clique there does not get a slap, I can’t see myself hanging around much.

Time to call Robin I think … Just lately, each time I have gone to call he has beat me too it!

I am sat here waiting for UPS to turn up and collect my Ipaq, I may even get it repaired at some point, who knows? Actually, I have enclosed a letter explaining I want it replaced and not repaired, what’s the betting they’ll ignore it.

Daisy dropped my laptop and has killed it. I was not happy with the laptop spec as it was but could not justify replacing it. I do need one though else I’d go mad so I went out and bought myself a new one with a Pentium M 760 2Ghz chip and 2 gig of RAM too. I reckon this one will keep me going for a while. Sure I was angry with Daisy but there is really very little I can do about it. I was also angry with Matt as he had a role to play in it too and it was really more luck than anything that it didn’t get busted after he used it as it was always left on the floor in the lounge afterwards.

I have put aside any thought of going to Florida this year. I hope to get a costing from Robin at some point of what they would charge me for the house but I won’t be making any decisions until I know what money I have and I won’t know that until something like late August or September.

Someone on Kagoul has been spreading shit about me which is starting to reach the boards and I am not at all happy about it not least because there is totally no truth in it and even the retraction implied there is no smoke without fire. If that place does not improve and the clique there does not get a slap, I can’t see myself hanging around much.

Time to call Robin I think … Just lately, each time I have gone to call he has beat me too it!

I was hoping that when Jermaine went residential that my life would change for the better, I would be able to relax and enjoy myself more but I should know better.

It seems that I have to still be doing stuff, sorting things out, looking out for his welfare. I stupidly forgot to make a claim for him to get benefits in his own right when he was 19, that is over £500 I have lost. The advice I got regarding the DLA was also wrong. I was told that once he left I kept the payments for 12 weeks. When I say ‘I’ what is meant there is that I act for Jermaine so the money does come to me. The false information means a loss of a further £823. The Chalfont also got money out of me under what could be a false pretence and that is another £360. In all that means I have lost around £1700 that I thought I would have for this coming year plus being £200+ a week worse off now Jermaine is gone anyway it has made a huge difference to what I can do and how I do it. It is looking increasingly as though I won’t be able to go to Florida after all in October and I was really counting on that holiday as that place has just about everything I can want from a holiday destination and totally no stress and no having to worry about what anyone else is thinking.

There was a time when I managed to find a work around for such problems but I just can’t see it as things are. I just seem to be having more money out than I do coming in. The worse aspect is that 2007 promises to see an even great loss of revenue and a fight on my hands. I cannot see that Zoey will easily get DLA again but then, she is also not able to be left on her own so that I can get a job. If she does get DLA it will be at a much reduced rate making coping with stuff even more stressful and Matt still has this attitude that I am the one that is supposed to support him through college and Uni and I just can’t do it. It’s like I had mega pressure when Jermaine was here but a financial buffer but now have slightly reduced pressure but with the money being taken away, my safety net is slipping and it dead scary.

Martyn has decided not to do Florida, probably academic under the circumstances but I know if I can find the cash I will have just as good a time with Robin and the girls as long as I have my own wheels. The only problem as I see it is that they will have money to do what they want and I won’t. It may be cheaper for me to find somewhere cheap to stay so I really don’t feel obligated to try to ‘keep up’ financially with them or have any awkward moments concerning money.

Am finding it very difficult to get motivated just now. I really don’t feel like doing anything except spend loads of money and eat copious amounts of food. Both these things would ultimately make me all the more miserable. I suspect I know what I am missing but as they don’t sell it at Tesco I shall have to go without for a while longer

I was hoping that when Jermaine went residential that my life would change for the better, I would be able to relax and enjoy myself more but I should know better.

It seems that I have to still be doing stuff, sorting things out, looking out for his welfare. I stupidly forgot to make a claim for him to get benefits in his own right when he was 19, that is over £500 I have lost. The advice I got regarding the DLA was also wrong. I was told that once he left I kept the payments for 12 weeks. When I say ‘I’ what is meant there is that I act for Jermaine so the money does come to me. The false information means a loss of a further £823. The Chalfont also got money out of me under what could be a false pretence and that is another £360. In all that means I have lost around £1700 that I thought I would have for this coming year plus being £200+ a week worse off now Jermaine is gone anyway it has made a huge difference to what I can do and how I do it. It is looking increasingly as though I won’t be able to go to Florida after all in October and I was really counting on that holiday as that place has just about everything I can want from a holiday destination and totally no stress and no having to worry about what anyone else is thinking.

There was a time when I managed to find a work around for such problems but I just can’t see it as things are. I just seem to be having more money out than I do coming in. The worse aspect is that 2007 promises to see an even great loss of revenue and a fight on my hands. I cannot see that Zoey will easily get DLA again but then, she is also not able to be left on her own so that I can get a job. If she does get DLA it will be at a much reduced rate making coping with stuff even more stressful and Matt still has this attitude that I am the one that is supposed to support him through college and Uni and I just can’t do it. It’s like I had mega pressure when Jermaine was here but a financial buffer but now have slightly reduced pressure but with the money being taken away, my safety net is slipping and it dead scary.

Martyn has decided not to do Florida, probably academic under the circumstances but I know if I can find the cash I will have just as good a time with Robin and the girls as long as I have my own wheels. The only problem as I see it is that they will have money to do what they want and I won’t. It may be cheaper for me to find somewhere cheap to stay so I really don’t feel obligated to try to ‘keep up’ financially with them or have any awkward moments concerning money.

Am finding it very difficult to get motivated just now. I really don’t feel like doing anything except spend loads of money and eat copious amounts of food. Both these things would ultimately make me all the more miserable. I suspect I know what I am missing but as they don’t sell it at Tesco I shall have to go without for a while longer