Month: April 2015

Tying up the loose ends of 2014. I delved deep into Facebook earlier and believe I have got rid of any significant trace of Joseph, I hadn’t even realised we were still linked in any way but we’re not now so, that’s good.

Another little bug from that era was the DWP and the way they handled my vacation like I was a damned criminal! Today I got confirmation that my claim against them has been totally upheld with huge evidence of maladministration on their part, way beyond simple human error. They now acknowledge that I did nothing wrong and they had no right to take the action they did. The amount they fined me has been returned and a written apology is in the post, the least they can do.

Other parts of my life are coming together too though many rely on pure faith to follow through all the way as I’d like. Yes, that’s deliberately cryptic as it’s not good to tell the devil your business.

I’m having some lovely dreams these days, makes a change for me does that.

Chest infection is still not gone.

I have this need for chocolate, this is not good but I’ve just about avoided it so, all good.

Yep, today is a good day I think.

Last night, albeit with a little stress, we got through GTA Heist number 4 OK. This may not sound like much, you know, what with it being just a game and all that but, at the same time it is quality time with family and I think we all learn a little about each other from it and, yes, even perhaps grow a little as people because we all have rather strong personalities and we’ve got to learn to get along and get things done so, yes, it’s great fun blowing seven kinds of poo out of the bad guys, it’s also lovely to spend fun times with good people.

Now, today, bright and sunny and, warm! OK, we’re not talking about sunbathing weather here, oh Lord no, but 17°C is perfectly acceptable at any time of year and certainly for April with the promise of more to come.

I visited Robin, had a phone chat with my Dad and with my sister and highlight of day, had a long Skype with Randy. It’s almost frustrating, annoying, lovely and … I don’t know, several other things how I seem to consider Randy part of my present and future. It’s like something kicked in and just said to stop looking until I at least explore the possibility. This year, at some point, that will happen I can feel it in my bones, water or where ever we feel these things like it’s sort of just meant to be. Then again, I’ve got things totally wrong before but, before, I always had my doubts and this time, the doubts are normal doubts, the sort we’d have with someone living around the corner so, who knows?

Still have this chest infection, antibiotics were always too weak to really tackle it and my GP should know better so when they run out on Wednesday I suspect I shall have to ask for some stronger ones, oh sometimes I wish we could get them over the counter here like we can in other countries! But then, we’re the stupid damn country which dictates how much paracetamol we’re allowed to buy at any one time on the basis that we are bound to be wanting to kill ourselves if we buy more than 32! In context, that’s just 4 days supply so if someone has bad cold or flu, they cannot get them as soon as they start feeling rough to see them through the illness, they have to drag themselves out to go get some more! What a wonderful country we live in which restricts pain relief and tax’s cigarettes which someone can smoke every minute of the day until they get cancer! Surely if someone is going to kill themselves then better to let them do it quick and cheap than slow and unpleasant and great cost to the country?

No idea why I got on that subject, I don’t even need pain relief at the moment so, anyway …

Dinner smells nice, bangers and mash with carve it gravy.

I was listening to the Archers earlier (it was on) and they did an Easter thing, a religious bit, prayers and stuff and, I don’t think all that ‘thou art wonderful and should be blessed’ ever really works with me. I mean, if I created everything, I mean, you know, there was nothing and then there was everything, all the giving thanks and so on would really be grating about now, well, probably several thousand years back actually. I can’t imagine any God doing all that creation for the glory, power and adulation of it all. So, I’d rather carry on with my own belief structure which is far more ordinary and basic and makes a lot more sense. We are born, we live our life doing whatever we think is right and we’re judged at the end of it and what happens then is either because we screwed up (possibly again) or not or we still have more to learn … that sort of thing and that, somewhere out there someone does some monitoring and might, in some small but significant way, be able to affect some outcomes and, to be honest with you, I don’t think they’re much different from us because I know some of the answers I’ve got have been the right answers but with a cunning twist as if to say, you for what you asked for but, you should have been more specific. I imagine a lot of laughter on that higher level of existing  🙂

I created this Mini Site just for fun and, in the hope that (and failing a lottery win), someone might actually think it would be OK to say hello

Well, it looks as though the plans are in again for the new housing development at the end of our road. Where we live is going to get a whole lot busier as it becomes one of three access points for the new estate which is to incorporate two new schools, various shops, community centre and pub. None of this particularly bothers me, people have to live somewhere after all. If I have a concern it is as petty as petty get … how will the cats survive? They barely make it across the road outside to the allotments as it is with minimal traffic, no doubt they’ll be in big trouble as we start to get construction and later increased residents traffic. On the plus side, doing my NIMBY bit, we won’t be getting dog walkers cars parked in our parking spaces as they’ll have nowhere to take their dogs!

Practically speaking, it might be worth Sean & Daisy holding fire on moving out any time soon as this promises to offer a lot of quality housing in the right area for them if they’re prepared to hang it out. It’s even slightly closer to where Sean works and, with the new schools, it could be a good option for them.

From my own perspective, I think if the Council are in bargaining mode, with a huge house here I might push for a swap with a three bedroom place over there. Better they lose a 3 bedroom and gain a 6 bedroom in my opinion. If they don’t agree I shall just get lodgers in and get an income from the place. Yes, I know that seems terribly unfair but, you work with what you have in this life.

My chest, changing the subject slightly, seems a little better today. I got some antibiotics yesterday. I have only noticed a slight improvement with regard to the allergy rashes I keep getting so I guess that’s a case of keep taking the tablets … new meds these which are some of the strongest available and yes, GP was right, they do make me drowsy … even more than usual!